OMG I SAW YOU ON GOOP! My husband and I have always had a spectacular sex life and yet your guidance and education through that show lead me down arabbit hole.
We watched together and then tried out some of your suggestions. It was awesome. 😂🎉😁
I also left a high-control religious belief system. I was born a 4th generation member to it, and spent 43 years in it. So glad you got out! So glad I did, too. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I look forward to reading & learning more from you.
Jodi, welcome! I commend you for the courage and tenacity it took to leave something so deeply embedded in your family culture. That's a really big deal. How did they respond to it?
It’s very complicated and took years … i will never be able to leave the mind control fully which is horrible. It stays with me & I have to counteract it all the time.
My family is so deep in it that I had to shun myself from them for a while. And while they knew I left the belief system, they can’t understand what that means for me, personally. So, I lost my family for a while. It was a very painful time for me.
We are all okay now & don’t talk about that belief system anymore. I know they talk about it with each other. But they don’t discuss it with me & I don’t discuss with them.
It’s hard to see my family in that high control group. I love them and I want them to be safe. And they are all adults, making their own choices. Brain washing is powerful stuff, very difficult to leave. It takes courage & the willingness to feel deep, rooted pain, to leave a cult. :(
wonderful to hear your story! thanks for sharing❤️ i glad to hear you've kept a sense of spirituality from your mormon past, but grew more into spirituality through the sensual erotic.. 😘✨
Sophie, thank you for your kind words. It's been lovely to have my spiritual practice evolve. I have always yearned for the divine feminine and happy to have a relationship with her now. And being embodied is the medicine!
I have. I also have Jaiya's book. I found all of it to be freeing, to let go of the shame associated with my love of good sex (with someone who actually knows what they're doing) and to revel in my kinky side. Even before I discovered EB, I knew what I wanted. I've never thought of myself as sexually broken, just misunderstood and deeply unsatisfied. It wasn't until I realized I'd been making incredibly shitty choices over the years (and found myself doing exactly the same thing again, for the fifth time) that I said "no more, no fucking way am I doing that again..." and I changed my life. The EB appeared at just the right time for me and although I'm what would be considered an "older woman," better now than never!! I like who and what I am (after years of shame- not from sex, rather just existing- and living in a different kind of shadow), I'm open and honest and shame-free. But I also know that as a shapeshifter it's easy to slide into that shadow of giving more than I receive, of trying to please the other person to avoid appearing greedy or "too much" or scary. I want to be fed and although finding the right men in the maze of life can be problematic, I'm not lonely or desperate. I'm alone most of the time (with my 2 dogs) and I like it. I'm not afraid of being solitary. There's something about getting older that although I'm occasionally surprised to still be here, I'm much happier this way. I'm a highly kinky, sexual shapeshifter who wants it all and occasionally, I get it!!! And it's enough at this point in time. Yay me!!!😉😊🤣
Thank you, Sarina, for your precious words! I'm so glad that this resonates with you. Layla is a freaking powerhouse! It is absolutely her dharma to initiate us into our sexual prowess! That experience changed my life.
Hello Daughter! I'm so proud of the incredible woman you are and the courage it's taken to listen to the voice within you and how you are helping others to do the very same for themselves! I too am learning and listening to my own inner voice. Look forward to watching you and reading your
Mom! Welcome to Substack, so good to see you here! I really appreciate your comment. It's definitely been a journey to unlearn the idea that someone else knew what was better for me. May we recognize that deeper inner knowing, and constellate it in the people we encounter as well.
OMG I SAW YOU ON GOOP! My husband and I have always had a spectacular sex life and yet your guidance and education through that show lead me down arabbit hole.
We watched together and then tried out some of your suggestions. It was awesome. 😂🎉😁
I am so very excited you are over here!
Hello Amanda, welcome! You saw my teacher Jaiya on Goop! Isn't she a marvel? I am humbled to sit at her feet.
I'm so thrilled to hear that this guidance and inspiration opened up a portal for you two to go even deeper! Love this for you!
So glad to have you here!
Oh! Ok! Thank you for clarifying! I love all this stuff, and I’m so thankful you’re here to educate even more! 🥰
I also left a high-control religious belief system. I was born a 4th generation member to it, and spent 43 years in it. So glad you got out! So glad I did, too. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I look forward to reading & learning more from you.
Jodi, welcome! I commend you for the courage and tenacity it took to leave something so deeply embedded in your family culture. That's a really big deal. How did they respond to it?
It’s very complicated and took years … i will never be able to leave the mind control fully which is horrible. It stays with me & I have to counteract it all the time.
My family is so deep in it that I had to shun myself from them for a while. And while they knew I left the belief system, they can’t understand what that means for me, personally. So, I lost my family for a while. It was a very painful time for me.
We are all okay now & don’t talk about that belief system anymore. I know they talk about it with each other. But they don’t discuss it with me & I don’t discuss with them.
It’s hard to see my family in that high control group. I love them and I want them to be safe. And they are all adults, making their own choices. Brain washing is powerful stuff, very difficult to leave. It takes courage & the willingness to feel deep, rooted pain, to leave a cult. :(
wonderful to hear your story! thanks for sharing❤️ i glad to hear you've kept a sense of spirituality from your mormon past, but grew more into spirituality through the sensual erotic.. 😘✨
Sophie, thank you for your kind words. It's been lovely to have my spiritual practice evolve. I have always yearned for the divine feminine and happy to have a relationship with her now. And being embodied is the medicine!
Kinky, sexual, shapeshifter here with a dash of sensual eroticism. Yep, that's me...!! 😈
Yes, Morgan, yes! Love that you've mapped your erotic terrain so throughly. Have you ever been to one of the Erotic Blueprint events?
I have. I also have Jaiya's book. I found all of it to be freeing, to let go of the shame associated with my love of good sex (with someone who actually knows what they're doing) and to revel in my kinky side. Even before I discovered EB, I knew what I wanted. I've never thought of myself as sexually broken, just misunderstood and deeply unsatisfied. It wasn't until I realized I'd been making incredibly shitty choices over the years (and found myself doing exactly the same thing again, for the fifth time) that I said "no more, no fucking way am I doing that again..." and I changed my life. The EB appeared at just the right time for me and although I'm what would be considered an "older woman," better now than never!! I like who and what I am (after years of shame- not from sex, rather just existing- and living in a different kind of shadow), I'm open and honest and shame-free. But I also know that as a shapeshifter it's easy to slide into that shadow of giving more than I receive, of trying to please the other person to avoid appearing greedy or "too much" or scary. I want to be fed and although finding the right men in the maze of life can be problematic, I'm not lonely or desperate. I'm alone most of the time (with my 2 dogs) and I like it. I'm not afraid of being solitary. There's something about getting older that although I'm occasionally surprised to still be here, I'm much happier this way. I'm a highly kinky, sexual shapeshifter who wants it all and occasionally, I get it!!! And it's enough at this point in time. Yay me!!!😉😊🤣
How beautiful to see and hear more in this post! Love everything you express. Of course you trained with Layla (I haven’t but adore her!)
You are so needed here. This is only the beginning 😉
Thank you, Sarina, for your precious words! I'm so glad that this resonates with you. Layla is a freaking powerhouse! It is absolutely her dharma to initiate us into our sexual prowess! That experience changed my life.
I receive this, thank you! Here's to beginnings!
Hello Daughter! I'm so proud of the incredible woman you are and the courage it's taken to listen to the voice within you and how you are helping others to do the very same for themselves! I too am learning and listening to my own inner voice. Look forward to watching you and reading your
wise words.
Mom! Welcome to Substack, so good to see you here! I really appreciate your comment. It's definitely been a journey to unlearn the idea that someone else knew what was better for me. May we recognize that deeper inner knowing, and constellate it in the people we encounter as well.